Mesmerized Ball...

was fun... haha. took a lot of pictures. and when i say a lot i mean a lot: a few hundred that is hehe. everyone was looking great :) the food was okay i guess. best part was the dancing and the photo taking. hehe. at one point after the entree meal everyone was up taking photos. wish i could have taken photos with more ppl though. nvm there's always valedictory. so anyways during the middle part of the dancing everyone was like really hyped up cos the songs that were playing were really good..but then aiyoh after awhile the stupid dj started playing capalang outdated techno songs!! cis thats like so yesterday. practically danced the night away. hehe. gonna miss all this though. later.

blah/

ok so Side Effects was good. yippeeyayeh. ok no seriously it was good. onnly 2 actors but the way they portrayed their multiple characters was brilliant. plus they were great guitarists too.

proms tmr. yippeehoo. blahs. wearing suit n my grey shirt. dunno whether should wear tie. yes or no. will put on best smile n hide my true feelings. yes. what else to say. dunno. whats there to say. oh not excited about going back anymore you should know why. can i just stay in melbourne. 5 days. sheesh. go and die.

ah sudah im going to slp.

F.U.R.B

SO i kena ns on 10th dec. fcuking smart right these people in cmpb. go to hell lah fools. best part: they ask me to come down on 5th NOVEMBER to register. damn smart right? and they HAVE my details. OBVIOUSLY im not in singapore right cheebye. argh im damn frustrated with these morons now lah. friggin 10th dec masuk. i come back on 5th lor. blardie shits.

thanks to these fuckers i have to miss so many things: firstly of course catching up with my friends for what, 5 days? FIVE DAYS. then my sister is damn sad cos i cant come for the chalet aka 'family reunion' aka her bday party with all the cousins which i promised i could come and they specially moved it to the 16th so they can celebrate with me. but obviously i cant go cos these fuckers spoilt my plans. and there goes plans to meet ahma anthea n zoe when they come down to singapore. seriously lah go to hell.

they are the WORST organised part of the government. hellova lotta cockups all the time. fuckers. im seriously damn annoyed.

thanks alot CMPB. thanks for ruining my life. thanks for nothing. motherfuckers.

these are my confessions (part II)

hahaha okay so i just read someone's nick and burst out laughing. kind of a private mats joke. haha wait till i tell toh. lol

ok so the past few days have been quite uneventful cos obviously there's nothing else happening other than school. blah. but seriously time has passed very fast. it's already thursday! siaoness. 2 wks more of sch n then 2 wks break b4 exams and then yay going home. hoho! till then study like mad. term 4 dont play play. hahha.

prom's next week. which reminds me have 2 go pick up my suit on tues cos if i dont then ahma'll burn her 50 bucks that she signed for me and if that happens she will kill me. hehehe. no la i wont ffk u. i only ffk u all for lit lect. ok i promise LAST lit lecture of trinity i will go for the ridiculous tues morn one okay (although if i dun then i got the whole morn free!)

almost died yesterday cos i updated my mac os x then for some weird reason the usb couldnt load thumbdrives. okay then stupidly realised i installed the update but didnt install the dunno what security patch or smt. hehe. WELL i was trying to save dwnloads ok but yah. hehe

hud you better come in dec (b4 i leave tt is) or i will kill you :D

buka's in 20 mins time so i shall go mandi now. laters.

rawrrrrr

rawwwwrrrr im hungry. hehe. nvm only 2 n a half hrs to go to buka. yay. at home now just came back from class. ohya went safeway to buy more Justjuice. hahaha. addicted to paradise punchhhh. hehe.

lets see its 6 wks to singapore! is that right. i think so. anyway im leaving 4th dec midnight. :D

oh yah just wanna say smt abt what i read on someone's blog abt spring concert. it might not be abt out band but i have a hunch it is cos of some reasons. not that im taking offence anyway cos its not abt me but abt a friend. yeah the person who blogged may not like this friend of mine due to reasons i shant say. but hell springconcert was just about having fun. who cares if ppl zhao sia or whatever. (not that im saying anyone in particular) just support the ppl who performed lah. theyre just out to entertain. sheesh.

okay the paragraph above may not have made sense. but nevermind i know what i mean im just trying to censor out names.

blah got drama meeting later. boring lah. no mood already. just wanna get over exams n go home.

"

i'm not a perfect person.
there are many things i wish i didnt do
but i continue learning.
i never meant to do those things to you.

"

HANDS DOWN

this (or more like yesterday) is the best day i can remember; always will remember.

haha spring concert. went great. haha. made mistakes and was quite bummed after Slide cos we screwed that up. the friggin bass pedal stuck to the drums during the first chorus so i missed a beat or two getting it unstuck. so paiseh. then couldnt hear a friggin thing n couldnt hear the band; let alone gab singing. ended a line early but easily covered it up. hahaa. okay i think its cos ppl listen to the band as a whole n don't pick up all the mistakes we made. but for us we know we made the mistakes that we did.

however!

it was damn alot of fun. and that's what matters really. mine n clement's first performance ever. boy did i enjoy it. prior to the concert shaking like mad. stomach growling. feeling queasy. even experienced performers ie gab/xan scared. hahaa. the crowd turn out was very good. more than 100 ppl i'd say.

although after the whole thing i thought i did really badly. mainly cos when you're up on stage you can't hear a damn thing except for yourself. was in quite a grouchy mood after cos thought i screweed up bad. but when i watched the video - we really weren't that bad. in fact we were one of the better bands including sam's band which was really super too. :) but cheers to everyone who performed for being so damn sporting :)

special thanks to Lampu Hijau - gab/doug, xan, clement for doing this with me. haha. it's seriously a lot of fun. lol. so much for my original shyshylahdunwan2perform. hehe. gab- thanks for teaching me the fill ins n stuff, encouragement etc. :) (btw the guy in the video isn't you; i shall pretend u didnt zhao sia) inside joke. hehe. xan- thanks for the great guitar..skills? haha i forgot what word im supposed to say. googoodollsrock. clement- lucky you concentrated on the day! haha. thanks for the encouragement too man :) groupies(antheazoechristinarowena+chell theyall) thanks for the support :D "SO WE CAN GET SOME!"

fasting month starts tmr. haha. gonna try my best to fast. hope i can get through the whole month.

6+ weeks to home. can't wait. can't wait at all :) haha.

so why don't you slide?

All By Myself
(Eric Carmen)


When I was young
I never needed anyone
And makin' love was just for fun
Those days are gone


Livin' alone
I think of all the friends I've known
But when I dial the telephone
Nobody's home


All by myself
Don't wanna be
All by myself anymore
All by myself
Don't wanna live
All by myself anymore


Hard to be sure
Some times I feel so insecure
And love so distant and obscure
Remains the cure


All by myself
Don't wanna be
All by myself anymore
All by myself
Don't wanna live
All by myself anymore

everything that has a beginning; has an end

oh well 2 more days, wait, more like 1+ day left of the hols. time's really passed fast this hols. the first week was kinda slow but this 2nd week's been fast. maybe cos i've actually had stuff 2 do this wk - like finish up my cim project. finally done with it. tested it for bugs n stuff n i think it should be ok. thanks to susan for her help too tt day. otherwise id be cracking my head man doing the proj.

had another jamming rehearsal on fri. not bad ah i think we're quite ready 4 the spring concert already. hurhur. if i havent mentioned bfore we're playing googoodolls' Slide, hoobastank's Reason and dashboard confessional's Hands Down. in that order i think. haha. btw ppl come for the spring concert! 13th oct after sch at the same place as autumn concert. hahaa. thats like damn soon man. quite excited actually cos 1. ive nver played in a real BAND band (tt is if u consider the Mats to be a band but i highly doubt so) and 2. ive never performed in front of a crowd in a BAND band!. ok maybe in primary sch but tts more like a whole big grp performing together; this time it's only me, gab, clement n xan. but i think we can pull it off ah. hehe.

went to bridge road today to hire my suit for the prom. 75 bucks man. cis. wanted a nicer jacket but tt was like 120 bucks too expensive. il end up wearing the shirt i wore to seniors nite instead of the one they provide cos it looks quite capalang lahs. hehe lucky brought ahma with me cos had to use her credit card to put down the deposit for the suit - thanks ahma! - hehe.

sunny day today so decided to go to the beach with the girls n rowy n xan. intially wanted to sit on that 360 degree upside down ride thing at luna park but it looked like got no kick n it was 7 bucks!! even the damn power moomba festival one was 5 bucks only. hoho! had icecream at mcd n just walked along the bridge and the cove n took photos. haha. didnt 'waddle' in the water like the last time cos it was too cold n the tide was up so couldnt walk far into the sea either.

went to crown intending to play pool but we looked so capalang in our board shorts n slippers n stuffs. damn unglamourous. hahaha. ended up going to ong's for dinner n grocery, wait more like junk food, shoppping at safeway. yup. haha.

missing my dad, mum n sis now. haha at least i know theyre really happy with the hse now esp my mum cos of the refurbishment. good4them. cant wait to see how my new-look room looks like. hehe. nevermind only october and november to go. though i'll miss all my trinity friends too! hehe. antheazoeahma dec come singapore we havoc k. ZARA!! hehehe. n ahma me n xan will bring u to KAP (it's mcdonalds not a ktv lounge!!).

been trying to call cikma. already one week so hard to get her. haiz. hope she's recovering well. hope i can talk 2 u soon. miss you so much too. in a way you've played a good part in making me the person i am now too. more outgoing n stuff. thankyou. though u wont ever read this. oh well.